A message from Rev. Em AKA Mamabear McGowan

Life Transition Guide - Author - Care Doula - Celebrant

Hey, welcome,

30 years ago, I had the vision, for a living project and sustainable space for exploring safe connection, healing and self discovery. Back then, I did not think someone like me, could ever do something like that, so I dismissed it as 'just a dream'.

Back then, I did not know who I was. Raised in an abusive household, I was more interested in keeping other people happy and keeping the peace. I believed that putting myself first was a selfish thing, and so long as I loved someone and took care of them, they would take care of me and keep me safe. I gave my all in unhealthy relationships and followed advice from others who I believed knew me better than I did, when they told me so. 

I was confused. I wondered why I got taken advantage of, mentally, physically and sexually. I burnt out trying to be better. I burnt out through over giving, over and over again. I withdrew from the world and was certain if I just focused on my partner it would get better. It didn't. I blamed myself for everything. I figured if life hurt so much then I must have really deserved it and had no idea why, maybe from a previous life? 

I was, for the vast majority of my life, suicidal. I hid it well. Beneath the mask of being a bodyguard, where hypervigilance was a super power and people pleasing had me over working to escape. I had CPTSD and was trapped in a really challenging marriage, raising a child on a fierce love with the inability to be truly present.

I looked outside of me for answers, I felt disowned from my family, and felt ashamed of my body and lack of education. I believed I would never be worthy of anything good, and if anything good came, I believed it wouldn't last. Nothing seemed to go right. I felt sorry for myself, I was angry because of being a victim of childhood sexual abuse and even thought that was my fault. I felt abandoned by everyone and did not understand why. 

It was only when I had had a breakdown that I returned to be closer to family, for the sake of my daughter, and began to build myself up that life changed. Not over night, but slowly. Self care did not work, self love seemed foreign. But losing weight because I could not fit in a swing at the park with my daughter pushed me to join a community where we all had weight issues. This helped me put my energy into something for someone else that I benefited from. 

And then I nearly died and my fear lead me in a different direction. It pushed me to change a little, but nothing like after my daughter attempted suicide. After feeling that fear, I was determined to help her heal. On the journey to heal her, I nearly killed myself. That was the shake up I needed and didn't realise it, when I started to take real responsibility and recover from my own traumas.

I studied the science and psychology of human behaviour, neuroscience and the philosophy of metaphysics. The results became way more than I ever thought possible, after I realised the crossovers between 'new thought' and ancient wisdom. I became a Minister of Metaphysics after being Ordained as a Reverend. My studies revealed beneath the many forms of religion is one love. The one love that unites all. Now I host services as a celebrant marking the union of souls and moving from one stage of life to the next. 

My biggest healing came through reconnecting and returning to nature, as this supported my practices, and resets the nervous system with ease and I stopped being so anxious and on edge all the time. When I started to fear less, and learned to recognize and regulate my nervous system, my world changed. My world has slowly become more safe, stable and more sustainable and more and more of me feels at peace. 

This is not just possible for me. Epigenetics teaches us, that each person, effects their environment and everything in it. The more focused we are, the more power we have to become the change we wish to see in the world. And Bruce Lipton, the father of epigenetics proved that every single person, which includes you.. contains the power and potential to change and create heaven on earth.  

I invite you to pause for a moment and imagine what a world without fear would look like.

Together, It wouldn't take long before we would co-create a pandemic for peace. This means, starting right here and right now, by reaching out and making Fear Less Living part of your daily practice, you are already contributing to Peace on Earth.

Creative Rootz was born in 2022, to serve souls who want to remember what its like to have some solid ground to stand on. To provide the opportunity to pause, and breathe. To share a safe space where life slows down and get the support you need without having too much noise, so you can feel into what you really need and quieten down enough to hear yourself think. 

The Soul Sanctuary

Creative Rootz welcomes you to the Soul Sanctuary, a sacred space which holds you.

Here you can hold wellbeing workshops, and sacred ceremonies with Rev Em. Small, but intimate weddings, wakes and funerals